When @sophia can feel non binary while having a femme aesthetic, why can't I feel femme while having a masculine aesthic.
Other than that, I guess I did "LSA" once. I ordered 50 seeds of HWBR, which are legal in Arizona. I only ate 1 seed, which only got me confused. I gave away pretty much all of the others away to my friends. I have a few more, but Idk when I'll take them. They have a few nasty side effects, and being on an actual psychedelic is scary.
The other drug would be marijuana. I quite like weed actually. I don't use it very often since it's effects are a bit different for me. I have a extremely low tolerance, and It was become psychedelic for me. In fact, last time I saw a geometric rendition of ganpati, and though I am a inverted "bowl". Idk how to explain.
The main reason I wanted to do weed was because I head it helps with tinnitus. And it was worked pretty well for me. Though I like being high too.
Secondly, I have done drugs. The obvious ones being alcohol. I am not a big fan. I hate the side effects, and I was too worried about getting addicted to it since it runs in my family. I did made home made alcohol last summer which was a lot of fun. I think I'll make some more this winter.
And maybe I realised that subconsciously because, I have been "Hiding" stuff from mastodon. In fact, I have felt like I couldn't post freely anymore. So to counted that, and get a few secrets out, I'm gonna reveal a few things about myself.
I am a bit sceptical if this is even a good idea, but it's thing I have told a few of my good friends, and wouldn't want to hide from anyone but wouldn't really bring it up. The only real people I would want to hide it from would be my parents. [3/3]
I didn't post anything I wanted to hide, but I guess things that were more convenient when kept a secret. After I came to America, I shared those things with friends I made here. Around this time, I also started using the fediverse a lot less. I've realised now, that people back home are more likely to find out things about me through mastodon or my website, than through me or my friend. So its a nice way to "reveal" things without the confrontation...
A while back my brother created an account on the fediverse when he couldn't contact me. (My laptop was dead so I wasn't checking email, and my phone plan was over so he couldn't call). For a second I thought, will he actually start using mastodon? Of course, he didn't. But it was interesting because, I often posted things here that I would bring up with people I know in real life. It felt like a "safe space"....